Inside a Mind

Inside a Mind



Hardly, I woke up that day with an exhausted mind. I was late for work and I wondered why the alarm didn't wake me up! Quickly, I washed my face and headed to the car. The sun was burning and the dust almost prevented me from seeing the sky. There were tens of dead pigeons everywhere, and trash was covering the street. I stood in a shock till' I felt the burning sun and dust eating my face, so I entered my car and drove; I knew that there was something wrong, what a silence! I just hoped to see anybody around, but non." Am I dead? Is this the judgment Day! If there is any!" as I was buried under my thoughts the fear Infiltrated to my soul. When I approached the first traffic light on my way, I saw a black man whose face was covered with dirt and dust. His lips were very dry and the sun was burning him up. I freaked out; "the poor man, what has he done in his life! What sin could lead him to such atonement! I wondered what could be mine; what have I done in my empty life! All those sins blinded my vision. I knew in my heart that the second traffic light will be my stop; my empty life will be ended forever. I slowed down as I didn’t want to reach it, but unfortunately I did. I stopped and kept looking around with terror. Suddenly, I heard a loud scaring noise from behind. I closed my eyes and my heart almost stopped beating; the loud was getting closer and closer till' the silence showed up again. I looked to the right to see a fancy car with a very ugly driver; however, he was like a relief. I smiled for him hoping to have a smile back, but that never happened, he looked down on me as if I'm a disgusting creature and continued his way. I followed him as I had to be with anybody in that cursed day. While I was following the man and approaching the last traffic light before my work, the dust was fading away. I could see the sky vividly, and a few cars too. When I stopped, I saw bored unhappy faces waiting for the green light. Then I realized I'm not dead, this is simply life! This is just our miserable daily life.


The end

A Murderer Dream

Like many of us, Bader had a very ordinary life. There was nothing special, and for him, life could never be easier. Going to college, watching movies and visiting his father's grave every Friday is all what he had to do. However, Bader was not getting along with his mother. There was always that kind of domestic battles between them, so in summer he decided to move to his big brother's apartment. Even though Bader was always trying to show people that he was tough and didn’t care about anything or anyone, he was very sensitive in the depth of his heart, and his dream was to find a girl who could understand him and appreciate his thoughts. Some night, and while he was sleeping, he heard a very noisy sounds from the upper apartment. So he went to that apartment and knocked the door. A man opened and said" what do you want young man?" Bader replied "we're trying to sleep down there, can't you just cut that off?". As Bader was speaking, the man grabbed his nick and said "that's what happens when you live in an apartment and you'd better go to sleep now boy". Bader didn't say a word, but he was really annoyed from that man's attitude. He went back to his room and after minutes of thinking of how rude that man was, he slept. In his dream, Bader saw that man dead and he was looking at him. In the after noon, he woke up, and barely could remember his dream. He washed his face and went to the dining room where his brother was shouting" lunch". After they finished their lunch Bader's brother said" get dressed, we have to condole our neighbor". "Why who's dead?" said Bader. The big brother preceded" our neighbor in the upper apartment, his wife was trying to wake him up this morning but he didn't, poor man". Bader remembered his dream directly, and said to himself" what a coincidence!". Even though Bader had nothing to do with the death of that man; that day did not pass easily. Because he thought that the man some how died because of him. However, he gradually forgot the whole incidence. The summer passed away, and there was nothing more delightful to Bader than returning to college and seeing friends. In the first day, and during he was greeting friends, he saw a girl who attracted his attention. She looked very beautiful and conservative to him. Every since Bader saw that girl, he became obsessed of her. It looked like she completely invaded his mind and became his first priority. Bader watched her every day, every single movement and every expression she made. He just liked to watch her talking with her friends. As Bader was crazy about her, he finally found a way to introduce himself to her, and Noor wasn't so surprised because she had noticed Bader since the beginning of the semester. Days went on and in the middle of the semester they became very close to each other. They walked together, ate together and even studied together; besides, there was that kind of sweet harmony between them. Since Bader was a very polite student, he had a special relationship with all of his teachers except for one who was mean to him. Mr. Malek was an arrogant man who thought that no one could reach his standards. Bader was supposed to submit a kind of an extend course assignment, which took him two weeks to end, to Mr. Malek. But Mr. Malek with his arrogance refused to take the assignment because it wasn't perfect according to Mr. Malek's standards. That was like a big disappointment to Bader, and he even had a long argument with Mr. Malek that day which gave him nothing but rage at the end. Bader couldn't forget what happened, and he carried his agony to his dream. He saw Mr. Malek dying in front of his eyes and he couldn’t do anything. The next day he over slept, so he couldn’t make it to college. But he took advantage from that and spent the whole day rewriting the assignment. The next day he looked every where for Mr. Malek and when he asked they told him Mr. Malek died yesterday. Bader became totally speechless. Somehow the words became too heavy to be uttered. He went back home and fell in fever. Bader knew that it was him who killed those people; it was all in his cursed dream. So he refused to talk to any one even to his beloved who kept asking the big brother about him. Two weeks on that manner and the guilt almost killed Bader. Finally, the fever was gone and the suffering as well. Even though there was something eating him from inside, Bader found something else that took him out of his sorrow; it was Noor. Without hesitation, he walked to his brother and told him everything about the girl he loved, and that he wanted to marry her. The brother was very happy to see his young brother getting well and thinking of marriage. After three weeks of sickness and suffering Bader decided to get back to college and caught up what he missed. He was even more excited to see Noor and told her about his plans. In the morning, Bader got dressed and headed to collage earlier than usual. He sat in the place in which they used to sit. He was too happy that he couldn't get himself together, and he couldn’t imagine what Noor's reaction would be. Meanwhile, he saw a girl who looked like Noor walking with some guy. It was Noor's walkway but who was with her, they were holding hands, he definitely not her brother. She was smiling the smile, which she used to smile when she was with Bader. When they approached Bader she acted like she didn't see him, and he just couldn't take his eyes off that scene. He was very mad; how could she do that like she'd never met him before. She broke his heart. He felt like he was nothing and gradually surrendered to his anger. He never talked to her that day and after finishing his lectures, he went home. Even tough what Noor did turned him apart; there was still a part of her inside his heart. He was very sad because he knew what would happen at night. However he spent the day with his brother like he needed someone to embrace, and his brother was going to travel for business in the early morning. Bader preferred to swallow his pain and didn't tell anybody about what happened. At night, on bed he cried bitterly, and after two heavy hours he slept. That night passed away but Bader didn't wake up. Two other nights passed away but he never woke up again. He killed himself because in the very depth of his heart there was something belonged to Noor.
The end

10 Days

As an old man, Adam has nothing to do except sitting in his small warm house by himself. Sometimes reading and sometimes watching TV. Life has completely been changed and everything has become different to him since he retired. His friends just stopped asking about him unless they wanted something. He started wondering if there was something wrong with him; and by time Adam got along with that. The loneliness that surrounded him was too intense to stand which made him very sensitive. Everything became touching to his heart, and he could easily get hurt by anything. His eyes were always full of tears that couldn't be shed because of his pride. It has been a while since the last time he shaved his Beard, and he became very careless about his look. Adam's thought was "since no one cares about me why should I care about anyone". However, having breakfast in the nearby dining and reading the newspaper was his only escape. One morning and while he was heading to the dining, his eyes laid on a beautiful lady who was standing on the corner and she smiled for him. He didn't pay her attention as he thought no one would actually notice such an untidy old man, so he continued his way. The next day the beautiful lady was standing exactly in the same place and she smiled for him again. He smiled back and entered the dining. "She smiled for me" said Adam to himself. After he finished his breakfast he went back to his house quickly, and started thinking of that beautiful lady and dreaming of a sweet relationship. Even though she only smiled, that meant a lot to him. Day after day, she kept smiling for Adam and he was only smiling back, but that was bigger than what it looked like. It was like a bittersweet taste of life… yes she brought hope back to Adam. He shaved his beard and cleaned up himself. Eight days have passed on that scenario, but in every night Adam dreamed about her smile and he felt that he just needed to know her name. In the ninth day, he finally decided to talk to her, and like a child who is excited the night before the Christmas, Adam prepared his favorite black suit before he went to bed. He thought of every single detail, and he phrased the sweetest words to say and with a smile he slept. In the morning, in the same place and with a smile, he walked to her. But while he was getting closer it seemed like she was fading away, and once he became close, she vanished. Adam wasn't very shocked, because he realized that it was just his imagination, and he realized too that it is not family nor friends who create hope. Hope is inside every one of us, but we only need to search for it.

The end